Loving your womb – a collection of resources from my healing journey with endometriosis, which continues to expand in love every day.

 

Healing endometriosis is a journey of self love, a return to loving yourself, loving who you are and being at peace with you.   It is an individual journey and a beautiful teacher.  The journey will take you to some unexpected places and reveal much of what we choose not to see.  Love yourself, love your journey and come home to you.

Below is a very brief but intensive list of the practices I have explored and come to love through my own journey into my womb.

Resources

1. Books
   1. Reclaiming women’s voice by Lesley Irene Shore – out of print but available second hand on www.biblio.com   
   2. Loving your mother without losing your mind – H Norman Wright
   3. Heal your life – Louise Hay
   4. A return to love – Marianne Williamson – very spiritual
   5. Heart of the flower – a book of yonis http://www.onelove.net.au/the-book/
   6. Vagina – Naomi Wolf
       
2. Herbs
   1. http://www.herbosophy.com.au/4-her-blend/ women’s blend of ayervadic herbs
   2. http://www.herbosophy.com.au/triphala/ - for bowel health, balance and easing the  bloating and constipation
       
3. Self-Massage – massage your body parts while saying nice things about them to yourself.   I love the feel of my skin, I love my toes, I love my legs, hips etc
    
4. Love journal
   1. Every night before going to bed write down three things you love about yourself.  I love my …………..
       
5. Castor oil packs
   1. Dissolves ovarian cysts, softens scar tissue, heals the bowel and boosts the immune system http://peacewithendo.com/2014/01/castor-oil-packs-for-endometriosis.html
       
6. Diet – try eliminating wheat and gluten for one whole cycle, if you notice a different keep the change
    
7. Rad pads
   1. Cloth menstrual pads  http://www.rad-pads.com/home.php - freeing yourself of tampons and toxic female products
       
8. Cycle tracking – connecting your cycle with the moon
   1. Moon cycle tracking journals http://www.moonsong.com.au/ website also has some extraordinary articles the seasons of menstruation http://www.moonsong.com.au/the-spiritual-practice-of-menstruation/
       
9. Emotional healing
   1. Chakra dance http://www.chakradance.com/the-chakradance-practice
   2. Meditation – guided if you prefer
   3. Journaling ( a must ) – letting go letters – write down a letter to whatever you want to let go of and then burn it.
   4. Yoga
   5. Self-forgiveness
   6. Healing the shame – first book – reclaiming women’s voice talks a lot about this, you will find shame in body parts that resist the most – and in your I cants
   7. Pay attention to where you fight your body – where you want it to change – hair, eyes, looks etc.
       
10. Mirror work – look at yourself in the mirror and say “I love you” –Louise hay books
     
11. Amalgam filling removal and 12 month mercury detox program
    1. http://www.endoempowered.com/could-endometriosis-all-have-started-because-of-our-teeth-am-i-being-serious-hear-me-out/
    2. Chlorella supplement to draw out mercury and other heavy metals from the tissues of the body
        
12. Oil pulling – swishing coconut oil around in your mouth and drawing between your teeth for a period of 20 mins to pull toxins out of the mouth and body.
     
13. Pleasure practice – what gives you pleasure?  What does pleasure mean to you? How are you allowing pleasure into your life? What did you love doing as a child that made you forget about everything else?
     
14. Vocalising – the muscles of the jaw / mouth and your vagina are directly connected.  Biologically your vagina and mouth are the same, just at different ends of your body.   Singers are taught to relax their vagina to relax the muscles of the throat.   The sounds “a,e,i,o,u” which are the basis or all language are referred too as sacral sounds and originate from the sacral chakra.   Our centre of feeling and emotion.   Relaxing the jaw and releasing tension in the throat allows the vagina to relax.   Making sounds is also very important – singing is a great practice to get in touch with the womb and our inner worlds.
     
15. Belief clearing
     
    1. One thing we all need to do is to clear all the old negative beliefs and patterns from the subconscious mind.  The subconscious is a powerful mind but it is a non-reasoning mind. Your conscious mind must be in charge of the subconscious and clearly choose what beliefs and thoughts you want to store in it.
       As a child you just accepted and took in all the thoughts and beliefs that were around from your parents, teachers, family, culture, religious groups, TV etc.  So your subconscious holds a lot of stuff that needs looking at and sorting and clearing.
       One main way we become aware of the contents of the subconscious mind is when we react to something.  When we react we are coming straight from the subconscious, the non-reasoning self.
    2. Affirmations – Louise hay
    3. Intentions – Wayne Dyer
    4. Belief clearing – Byron Katie – book – loving what is.
    5. Working with a coach to help clear these beliefs – Tamra Mercieca http://gettingnaked.com.au/
        
16. Jade egg – yoga for the vagina  http://gettingnaked.com.au/what-is-the-jade-egg/
     
17. Smile practice – lay down and relax, feel into your womb and then smile – let the energy of the smile fill your womb and allow your womb to smile.

Today I cried

 

I sat in the car at 8.55 outside my work place and cried for a 10 solid minutes.   I cried tears of beauty, tears of change, tears of knowing and tears of “I don’t want to be like this anymore” and tears of “I’m ready to change”

Why you ask?

I could easily externalise everything and say it’s the constant stress of the morning, the stress of being a working mum, of trying to dress, feed and organise children who want to play instead of joining the incessant routine of outside life.  i.e getting ready for school.   I could say its nagging or fighting, I do like to say my daughter and I fight, when in truth she is my teacher, asking me everyday the same truth in the simple questions that I have so long ignored, it goes something like this, why do I have to go to school?, I don’t want to go to school. Why do I have to get dressed? Why do I have to eat breakfast? I’m not hungry, I’m not ready, I don’t want too, so simple and so truthful, and yet I force, I apply pressure, I growl, I express frustration and eventually I get her to school.   I  so often use the hollow response – because I have to go to work, because you love school, because school is the best years of your life or you will have fun when you get there.  After which I’m usually saying to myself – do I believe that, is that really true and that I would like to play too.

The truth, the real, serious, can’t be denied truth of why I cried, is the overwhelming realisation that it is I who need to change.  For things around me to change, it is I who need to change.   Change your thoughts, change your experience.    I recently had the pleasure of watching “The Shift” movie by Wayne Dyer and many things hit home and one truth in particular where he compares life to an orange – if you squeeze it, orange juice comes out, because that’s what’s inside.   What comes out is what is inside of you.    What came out this morning was the realisation that life is beautiful, life is happy, life is amazing and blissful, yet when I am squeezed by whatever the stress, what comes out.   Frustration, fight, resistance, tears, my resistance to who I want to be by who I currently am – I don’t want to fight anymore, I don’t want to be afraid anymore.  That surrender that spiritual leaders refer too that I have said for many years – I don’t know what that means, how do you surrender – In the car this morning, I finally understood.   Is surrendering to a way of being, to letting go of the fight, to letting things be without trying to control them, to realising that I don’t need the fight, I don’t want to fight,  I don’t need to struggle and that there is a whole much bigger universal order of things.   The universe takes care of everything, why do I need to interfere, and deep down inside the knowing that it is I who need to change.